Naw just gonna start in the real world, stop hiding and being childish. Just a job. The first serious job I will ever have. I really suck at life hahaha. I just want to sit on the computer. I’m lucky that I have such good metabolism that I’m not obese because I haven’t run in over a year and a half haha. I just don’t want to be scared anymore. I want to feel something again, I don’t like who I am at the moment :)
There’s nothing really wrong with wanting to sit on the computer though! Sure, you could be doing better things, but you could also be doing worse things. Computer is a gateway to learning or to meandering. It’s how you use it that matters! Games sort of end up being neutral, and are not childish. Just do what makes you happy. The ambassador who died in Libya recently at the US embassy was a really big E.V.E. player, and the community misses him. He did amazing things with his life, both in person and online. So never think that gaming is making you childish. It’s giving you something to relax with. It’s letting you do things that you could never do yourself (like shoot fireballs, haha). Think positive!